Into The Mirror.

I've been thinking it over, for the past few hours.

I've reached a conclusion about myself.

No matter how much i try, or attempt to do things the way i think i should,

I'm still just a baby.


I tell people how "Oh he's still young, he's still immature,"

"Just let him be and he'll grow up to understand."

But, really. I'm immature too.

I realised how much i take comfort in my girl because she's my pillar of strength,

And, and, i always see her as the mature one,

Even though she's told me (before) that i am the one leading her.

Or something like that.

I feel so immature, i feel ashamed of myself.

I just feel like a young boy all over again,

One that knows nothing about the world,

One that cares about nothing except himself.


People say, "Don't grow up too fast".

But i really think i should.

I feel i haven't been taking responsibilities seriously enough.

I feel i haven't put in enough effort into the things i do.

I feel i haven't been who i'm supposed to be,

Or who i tell people i am.

And we all know what i'm referring to, don't we.

She'll know, i'm sure she knows what i mean.


I really want to grow up.

I want to start becoming a man.

I've got a life i need to head by myself.

I guess i've been fooling around for a while, have i.



Then again, someone will turn to me and say,

"Hey, i read your post. You've grown up."


Now, i'm in a dilemma.

You decide for yourself what you think of me.

After all the thinking,

I'm back to square one.

I'm still confused.

I feel immature, still.

Yet i know, people think otherwise of me.

Gah.