Analyse The Heart.

I have nothing to say today, really.

A bad day is not a bad thing.

Not until you spoil another person's bad day.

It's not about yourself anymore, at that stage.

You wish you could, lunge straight into the other person's life and fix everything.

Fix everything to fix your own guilty heart.

But, it's just impossible, sometimes.

You wish you could do all that.

You wish, you could just suddenly pretend nothing has happened.

But it's just impossible.

And that feeling sinks in.

It just keeps sinking in so badly,

You just don't even want to say anything anymore.

Especially to that person. You just feel so low.

And it's your own fault you feel low, you can't blame anyone.

Even if you wanted to be the hero, even if you WERE a hero inside,

You just can't do anything anymore.

The moment you muster enough weak courage to say something,

You just blurt out apologies after apologies.

You know it's not going to fix anything, but you just wish they could.

You keep going on and on, and you ask for forgiveness.

And then here's the part where the pain drives in deep.

Because, the person you hurt so badly just tells you they've already forgiven you.

And it hurts so much, because, they took in all the pain,

Yet they still can forgive.

Then you start to wonder, are they really forgiving you?

And you just can't believe they did, because,

Even you can't forgive yourself.

And the pain sinks in.

You wish you hadn't done it at all.

And you wish the person could just scold you,

Or punish you. Just so you could dissolve your guilt a bit.

But you know that person just won't do it.

Because she loves you.

And that is the point where it hurts so badly,

You wish you were just dead.